I went through what I will call, for the lack of a better phrase, some f#$%ed up sh^% in 2005, and I ended up moving and starting over, in the process losing contact with just about everyone I'm not related to by blood. I won't go through the details now, but suffice it to say that things are a whole lot better now, and I'm a real person again instead of some tragic fictional character of my own making.
Guess I'll go and browse the journals now.